Love u @ 5:40 am

Ding-ding. The pinging of my cell phone awoke me this morning at 5:40 am. It was a text message from my sister.

"Love u."

I stood there in the early morning darkness, the house quiet and still and I felt my throat closing in on itself.

My sister, my best friend, my confidante, the sense to my sensibility, was on an airplane ready to leave L.A. and fly to Illinois. She’s moving there and not coming back. It’s a good move for her and her family, but it still feels so, so wrong. I began crying for like the 80th time this week, the tears blurring my sight as I text’d her back.

It’s been a tough week. Morning sickness kicked in full force. I spent most of last week in bed or in the bathroom. And it was my sister’s last week in California.

Her two little words: "Love u," spoke volumes. For a girl who, when we were kids, drew strict lines in the bed and forbade me to cuddle, hug, or even touch-her-or-else!, just getting a declaration of love out of her is epic. Sometimes, I’d accuse her of having no feelings. Really, it was just because I could rarely govern my own.

Where I was overly critical, she was compassionate. Where I was stingy, she was generous. Where I burned bridges, she never repaid evil, even to those who treated her unkindly. She valued peace above being right and was often the one who apologized first.

"It’s always better to take the humble route, Loll," she would say to me. Whenever she called me "Loll" I knew she was being affectionate. It was when she called me "Elizabeth," that I knew I was in trouble.

I could always make her laugh. When she was sick as a kid, I would make up funny songs and stories and go dancing around the room impersonating various people we knew. She would laugh and laugh and then ask me to do it again. I always would.

Sure, we irritated each other, argued and tattled to mom like all kids do. But we always made up. Always. We never, ever, ever let a disagreement, grievance or a difference come between us.

Which is why, even with thousands of miles separating us, I know nothing can ever really come between us.

And eventhough love never fails, The Mateo’s heart may do just that once he sees my cell phone bill. Anyone got extra minutes they wanna donate? ;-)

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  • http://penlesswriter.blogspot.com Susan Joyce

    What a nice tribute to your sister! No time and space do not separate.

  • http://macchio4family.blogspot.com/ Kim

    …my heart aches for you… your sister sure sounds like something special. I hope my kiddos grow up with a similar bond… ~ Kim

  • http://www.heidijowhatdoyouknow.blogspot.com Heidi Jo

    do you have a picture of the two of you to post? that would be a nice visual!

    what a fabulous tribute…didn’t have a sister relationship like this. how amazing. how much age difference was there?

  • http://anothermomonthego.blogspot.com Just Mom

    Simply beautiful. I’m talking of both your relationship with her as well as your heartfelt words.

    My sister and I are friends, but not as close as the two of you seem to be. Of course, since both of us went to college, we’ve always lived apart. She’s now in San Diego while I’m in South Dakota.

  • http://www.itsawonderfulwonderfulworld.blogspot.com Chelle

    Elizabeth,
    Sometimes you can sympathize with another’s experience, but not emphathize. Today I can truly empathize with your experience, and I send love your way. They say that sibling relationships are some of the most powerful and influential in a person’s life– and that holds true for me. I lived 8 years of our married life ‘other places’ and those sibling relationships, (3 sisters, 2 brothers) drew us back to SLC, for better or worse ; ) Plus, the cousin relationships for my children are priceless.
    p.s. You will be amazed at how close and connected you will stay with her.

  • http://www.elizabethesther.typepad.com Elizabeth

    thank you all, so much! another positive: it will be fun to travel to visit her! :0)

  • your bro in nd

    It sounds like she is the older one (right). Hey I know that blogging will be a great way keep contact. I really can’t believe how my relationship with HJ has grown since she started blogging. It really is cool to get regular news and opinions. You are in my thoughts and prayers and it sounds like thanks to the fact that you are in the motherly way, you can’t help being distracted.

  • http://pendleyfamily.blogspot.com nickernoodle

    That is so great. My sister and I just had a huge fight yesterday but made up right away. We had the same relationship as you do and its wonderful having a sister, most days. I pray that time will heal your heart and with all the technology these days, it will still seem like she is close. Although it won’t be the same!

  • Teresa

    Praying for you as you feel the pains of missing your sis. Having a sister is an awesome blessing. I know that you and your sis will remain close despite the miles between you. Also praying for the morning sickness….I remember that all too well. :-)

  • http://mommaroar.blogspot.com Momma Roar

    I have an older sister, but we don’t have as close of a relationship – I pray it gets better for us. I will also say a prayer for you and your sister being further apart – and for you when your hubby sees the phone bill!

    (off topic – thanks for stopping by my blog. We have about 2.5 acres – we are in a development in the country. I live in Lancaster County, PA – most of it is country! lol)

  • http://www.karennkool.blogspot.com karenkool

    I love this tribute and your transparency! My sister and I were only close for a short time. We talk like once a year. It’s very sad. I think my daughters will be close now and forever. They sound more like what you described–hee. That makes me smile big!

  • http://profile.typekey.com/ronaldbaffoni/ Ronald baffoni

    This is a test with my new TypeKey
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