While earning my bachelor's degree in English, I took several graduate level classes in poetry writing and explication. Poetry has always been my first love. I dream in couplets. I can't say I'm very good at it; my poetry always falls short of the image, feeling, event I'm trying to capture. I haven't written much poetry in the last five years. In January, though, I started writing it again. And I thought maybe I'd share a little something with you. I've been working on this poem for a couple of weeks. I'm not sure it's exactly where I want it. But it's getting there. This is about my relationship with God and words. xo. EE.
The Inceptive Soliloquy
These, my words, burned up like chaff,
burned out like the sleep deprived mother of a newborn baby.
Words broken like bread,
poured out like blood,
shed for you.
Words sweet as honeycomb
and damning as fire,
all given, all-all, until one word remains—
your name, set as a seal on my heart
seared into my soul.
Year after year pressing deeper, jealous
after every jot and tittle
gathering colloquies, vernaculars, dialects to yourself,
giving and taking away
from conception to grave; You: the inceptive soliloquy
bespeaking every alphabet
every elementary particle,
entangling me in the fundamental question:
In the beginning was the word,
would you have spoken it knowing
we’d reject You?
March 13, 2016